Thursday, March 25, 2010

"Yes"...Heaven needed amusement!

Well, today’s the day…a very large, iconic stone in my path. I’ve been married to my wonderful husband now for 13 years…and have been without my Daddy now for 2. What a journey!


I’ve struggled so much on this journey, to be honest. Of course there have been fabulous times; but the pain has been there, too. So many times I have begged and pleaded with God to “grant me MY blessings” and give me what I have wanted. Now I don’t mean small, superficial “things.” I’m speaking of the major stuff—health, life and big miracles.

Sometimes He’s said “Yes” and intervened to alter reality. And so many other times I’ve gotten a big fat “No”…my Basset Hound was lost forever…my business struggled to survive…tragedy struck and took away all my grandparents, Daddy and uncle in a very short 18 months…my body struggled with severe health problems…I didn’t get the job I thought I wanted…

So why has God not said “Yes” to those things that would have meant so much to me? Why has He not spared my Daddy, at least!?!? This is the question I struggled with for so long. But not too long ago I was blessed with a “refresher course” that provided a new perspective.
The message:
God promises His blessings. All of His blessings are “stamped with a ‘Yes.’” He has not become a “Yes” and “No” God! He puts His “Yes” in us so that when we seek Him fully we also seek His full blessings—His full “Yes’s.” He is always a “Yes.”
Derived from 2 Corinthians 1:19-20

So while I truly thought, for example, that the best blessing I could receive would have been to have my Daddy spared for a longer time on this earth with me and his wife and other daughters and family…it wasn’t (as hard as this is to admit) a blessing that would have ultimately been the best for me, for us, for others in this world, and for the events in Heaven.

I don’t know what larger purpose my Daddy’s death has served. But I believe in God. I believe in God. I trust what He says to me. I trust what He says about me. I trust Him…and what He says is that His answer “for what is best”—the ultimate “better off for everyone in the long run” scenarios—is His “Yes.”

So I have to believe that somehow, somewhere, some way my Daddy had fulfilled all of His blessings here on earth and was called to serve a greater purpose elsewhere. His death and physical departure from me WAS His “Yes” because it needed to be for me and others to receive our intended Godly blessings. Wow.

(I see Daddy up there surrounded by a crowd of angels, mostly women, and he's entertaining them with his silly jokes, dramatic and intriguing stories and jovial charm and wit!  I guess it's possible that "the greater blessing" could have been that Heaven was in desperate need of amusement!  Ha.)

Food for thought…
Have you ever reaped an incredible and unexpected harvest following a “no” you thought you’d never survive?

1 comment:

  1. Another "greater blessing" could be that his girls have a much tighter bond with each other now...

    Love ya, sis!

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